Wednesday, October 7, 2009
it's our freshman year .
well, i just started my first year of highschool .. kinda cool. some people are major bitches, but oh well. i've met a bunch of new people and to tell you the truth, they're freaking awesome! there have been bad days already .. i know right ? totally impossible. but yeah, i try my hardest not to think about the bad things. there have be AWESOME days too. last period, favourite class ever. great teacher and people ;]
ahaha, well yeah . i decided to write on it today because i haven't written on this in forever. i hope i'm not failing anything .. i really am trying hard. haha, well yeah. here comes my misery. this guy.
let's see, there's this one guy who i "liked" the first time i saw him. EVER. i thought he was pretty cute, but i learned from my mistakes. okay, well .. i found out he was in one of my classes & when i saw the way he acted, i totally got turned off. right away. i won't make fun of him here. let's just say he was very immature. seriously, he acted like a ten year old. but i guess we're good. we're friends, but his smile is just soo beautiful. that's one thing i fell for. also, his eyes. oh man, his are are gorgeous.
i need to stop talking about him. okay, nexxxxxxxxxxxt! hmm .. me and me friends think this one guy is HOT, and i swear on my life he is. but here's what awkward, he's my ex-crush's brother. and hes a SENIOR .. but whatever, we just think he's hot. no, but seriously. this dude is soo hot. haha, i NEED to back off these boys.
well yeah, enough about boys. DRAMA. wow, it's only been like a month of school and people are already spreading rumors? that's just soo stupid. i'm not saying this because people are talking about me. but that some people say shit about my friends. whoever speaks shit, oh my gosh. haha, no worries. i won't kill you. but you need to get your facts straight.
there's soo much to talk about ever since i walked through those front doors. i feel like i need to add way more to this post. but i have nothing to talk about. i lied. i have tons to talk about, but i just don't want to say it here. anyways, these past weeks have been hilarious. we'd do stupid things, then people would laugh at us & we wouldn't care because to us, we're having the time of our lives.
just remember guys, our highschool lives will live FOREVER <3
i love you guys now & forever.
i've gotten closer with soo many people and i'm glad i did. i have your backs and i know for sure that you guys have mine.
J.M,J.A,M.F,B.H,O.K,M.B,M.P,H.C,H.R,T.M,R.M,N.R,C.H,W.B,L.R,M.G,A.M,M.V ( L )
ahaha, well yeah . i decided to write on it today because i haven't written on this in forever. i hope i'm not failing anything .. i really am trying hard. haha, well yeah. here comes my misery. this guy.
let's see, there's this one guy who i "liked" the first time i saw him. EVER. i thought he was pretty cute, but i learned from my mistakes. okay, well .. i found out he was in one of my classes & when i saw the way he acted, i totally got turned off. right away. i won't make fun of him here. let's just say he was very immature. seriously, he acted like a ten year old. but i guess we're good. we're friends, but his smile is just soo beautiful. that's one thing i fell for. also, his eyes. oh man, his are are gorgeous.
i need to stop talking about him. okay, nexxxxxxxxxxxt! hmm .. me and me friends think this one guy is HOT, and i swear on my life he is. but here's what awkward, he's my ex-crush's brother. and hes a SENIOR .. but whatever, we just think he's hot. no, but seriously. this dude is soo hot. haha, i NEED to back off these boys.
well yeah, enough about boys. DRAMA. wow, it's only been like a month of school and people are already spreading rumors? that's just soo stupid. i'm not saying this because people are talking about me. but that some people say shit about my friends. whoever speaks shit, oh my gosh. haha, no worries. i won't kill you. but you need to get your facts straight.
there's soo much to talk about ever since i walked through those front doors. i feel like i need to add way more to this post. but i have nothing to talk about. i lied. i have tons to talk about, but i just don't want to say it here. anyways, these past weeks have been hilarious. we'd do stupid things, then people would laugh at us & we wouldn't care because to us, we're having the time of our lives.
just remember guys, our highschool lives will live FOREVER <3
i love you guys now & forever.
i've gotten closer with soo many people and i'm glad i did. i have your backs and i know for sure that you guys have mine.
J.M,J.A,M.F,B.H,O.K,M.B,M.P,H.C,H.R,T.M,R.M,N.R,C.H,W.B,L.R,M.G,A.M,M.V ( L )
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
you cannot forget the past .
the past is the past, yes i know . but what if the past was the best ? then what ? how could i forget something that practically changed my whole life. you gave me the happiness i have now .. but now it's all gone, and you're there & i'm here. timing sucks , which means we weren't meant to be. imysfm . and people know that, i'm not hoping to expose our relationship here, it isn't my intention . just explaining how i felt when we were together . it felt like when you were a little kid, when you'd get that one toy you've always wanted .. then you get it, and you play with it forever and you get in trouble. well, i felt like that . we would talk forever, tell each other EVERYTHING, we were bestfriends. the bestest friend i've ever had. i don't know now, should i keep those memories .. ? or go along and make new ones ? it's taking everything away from me, my strength for starting over . people tell me that you were just one person, but they just don't understand . if only they could feel how we felt when we were together, you can't deny how you felt . i know you were happy, i could tell . like usual, we faught . for stupid reasons . we obviously made up and forgot about it . but i wish we were still strong, instead we ended up drifted apart and now we act like we don't know each other and worst, that we never shared anything special . it was all very special to me. i'm going to write too much, but if i need to .. sorry, but i will .
i may seem happy, but deep down inside i'm torn . i'm not broadcasting this so people can feel sorry for me . i just really need to get it all down because i'm keeping too much things inside & i feel like i'm going to explode . i'm not asking you for anything . i'm not asking you to come back and make me feel better, i'm just asking you why this all happened ? why did we get close, and drift apart fast? i don't even remember how i said my final goodbyes . i just said a simple bye because i was still upset that you left . i'm sorry, i try to make it up to you . but you don't seem to accept . everyone knows how it feels to have a strong love & feel like it'll never die, then once it does .. it kills . you have to admit . you know how it feels . i've been told to forget about it and move on to someone else . thing is, you've taken all of me . i don't ever want to love again . when i would tell you i loved you, i meant it . very much, and you'd say it too .
i'm starting to run out of things to say, because this is all limited . i loved you then, i'll love you know and i'm gonna love you forever . thanks for everything .
ilysfma.
6188-9308 .
i may seem happy, but deep down inside i'm torn . i'm not broadcasting this so people can feel sorry for me . i just really need to get it all down because i'm keeping too much things inside & i feel like i'm going to explode . i'm not asking you for anything . i'm not asking you to come back and make me feel better, i'm just asking you why this all happened ? why did we get close, and drift apart fast? i don't even remember how i said my final goodbyes . i just said a simple bye because i was still upset that you left . i'm sorry, i try to make it up to you . but you don't seem to accept . everyone knows how it feels to have a strong love & feel like it'll never die, then once it does .. it kills . you have to admit . you know how it feels . i've been told to forget about it and move on to someone else . thing is, you've taken all of me . i don't ever want to love again . when i would tell you i loved you, i meant it . very much, and you'd say it too .
i'm starting to run out of things to say, because this is all limited . i loved you then, i'll love you know and i'm gonna love you forever . thanks for everything .
ilysfma.
6188-9308 .
Monday, August 31, 2009
my breath is your breath .
oh no, school is almost here.
sorta excited .. only because it's a fresh start for me. i've been through waay too much this year and i dont think i can take anymore of it . thank goodness for this fresh start :]
aanyways, i'm only writing right now because both my cousins aren't talking to me .. one's sleeping and the other one is about to sleep .. i'm really tired too . right now one time is replaying OVER & OVER again .. why? why gee, i don't know . LOOL, probably because this cousin of mine [natalie] decided to play it . today i am going to write about my day today . weeell, it started out when i didn't wanna wake up at 6:45 .. when i was supposed to . then i had to shower, because i was really stinky . haha, kiddding ! anyways, then i forgot to turn my music off in my room before i went to shower . i wasted soo much energy . THEEN, my mom drove to toronto .. and yeah . the rest was history . i'm kidding, i got to my cousin's place .. to find that they were still fast asleep . why ? "there was a bug in the room." haha, alright . okaay, then i "tried" waking them up . didn't go to well .. so i went to the kitchen and watched your song. i got bored . yeeaah, so they finally woke up and we went to the uniform place .. in toronto . for my cousin . she wanted a cardigan .. and the didn't have it , so then we walked to wendy's and ate. i got reeeaally full . and we went home . now i'm here .. writing this down . with natalie beside me . life's great. oh yeah, happy birthday daddy :]
hmm .. how should i end this ? oh yeaah ! so last night .. my dad came into the kitchen and he sat down .. he looked at me & randomly started singing .. "UNHAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!" and at the same time he was banging on the table .. pretty weird. and one more thing .. it was only ten . LOOL, yeah . so back to how i was gonna end this . how about i give it some thought . alot of thought is needed to end an entry .
anyways . i got too lazy to think, so i'll just end up not writing anymore and that's how it'll end. see how lazy i am? i'm getting pretty tired & one time is still playing . i know, STILL . but whatever, he's kinda cute. so he makes it up for this song being annoying right now . i need clothes, warning.. i change my mind about things pretty fast . forget about clothes . this entry seems like it's gonna be one of my shortest . once again, i change my mind fast.
bye bye for now .
[8] i used to be love drunk, but now i'm hungover, i love you forever, forever is over, we used to kiss all night, not it's just a bar fight ..
say HELLO to GOODBYE .
it kinda feels like this might be one of my longest . writing this entry makes me feel good . i feel proud of myself . i guess today is just one of those greeat days .
p.s; ate arlene, please wake up :]
only because you've been sleeping for 20 minutes and i wanna walk .
kaay thaanks :D
see yaa .
sorta excited .. only because it's a fresh start for me. i've been through waay too much this year and i dont think i can take anymore of it . thank goodness for this fresh start :]
aanyways, i'm only writing right now because both my cousins aren't talking to me .. one's sleeping and the other one is about to sleep .. i'm really tired too . right now one time is replaying OVER & OVER again .. why? why gee, i don't know . LOOL, probably because this cousin of mine [natalie] decided to play it . today i am going to write about my day today . weeell, it started out when i didn't wanna wake up at 6:45 .. when i was supposed to . then i had to shower, because i was really stinky . haha, kiddding ! anyways, then i forgot to turn my music off in my room before i went to shower . i wasted soo much energy . THEEN, my mom drove to toronto .. and yeah . the rest was history . i'm kidding, i got to my cousin's place .. to find that they were still fast asleep . why ? "there was a bug in the room." haha, alright . okaay, then i "tried" waking them up . didn't go to well .. so i went to the kitchen and watched your song. i got bored . yeeaah, so they finally woke up and we went to the uniform place .. in toronto . for my cousin . she wanted a cardigan .. and the didn't have it , so then we walked to wendy's and ate. i got reeeaally full . and we went home . now i'm here .. writing this down . with natalie beside me . life's great. oh yeah, happy birthday daddy :]
hmm .. how should i end this ? oh yeaah ! so last night .. my dad came into the kitchen and he sat down .. he looked at me & randomly started singing .. "UNHAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!" and at the same time he was banging on the table .. pretty weird. and one more thing .. it was only ten . LOOL, yeah . so back to how i was gonna end this . how about i give it some thought . alot of thought is needed to end an entry .
anyways . i got too lazy to think, so i'll just end up not writing anymore and that's how it'll end. see how lazy i am? i'm getting pretty tired & one time is still playing . i know, STILL . but whatever, he's kinda cute. so he makes it up for this song being annoying right now . i need clothes, warning.. i change my mind about things pretty fast . forget about clothes . this entry seems like it's gonna be one of my shortest . once again, i change my mind fast.
bye bye for now .
[8] i used to be love drunk, but now i'm hungover, i love you forever, forever is over, we used to kiss all night, not it's just a bar fight ..
say HELLO to GOODBYE .
it kinda feels like this might be one of my longest . writing this entry makes me feel good . i feel proud of myself . i guess today is just one of those greeat days .
p.s; ate arlene, please wake up :]
only because you've been sleeping for 20 minutes and i wanna walk .
kaay thaanks :D
see yaa .
Thursday, August 27, 2009
Welcome To My Life .
i don't get it .
not at all , how can someone do such things and not care that it's hurting the people who love them the most ? this is what i really want to know . i really need the time away from all of this . it's killing me soo much, and people see it. then you go around acting like it you don't care . the way you talk to people, you act like the you're the best. hurts to know eh? but it's the truth. like when we all found out the truth .. man, it killed us . i felt like i wasn't going to be able to make it through that day . i don't want to sound mean at all, it's not my intention, but it seems like you want everyone around you to feel bad about what they do. you're the one who always says what seems to be the "right" choice . but to other people's point of views, it's not right, at all . you need to learn how to treat the people who gave you life with respect . i just hope that if you read this, you'll hopefully learn a lesson. i know i don't say anything .. but it's only because if i do, you'll probably just say something to me, that'll probably make me get furious . we love you alot, but the choices you're making are really not making us proud, at all . we all know that you think you're doing nothing wrong .. but start thinking about you're family . we all hear and see how you treat people .. and it's not right . i'm not telling you to change how you are, i'm just trying to tell you to start treating people with respect . and don't try saying that you are .. because i wouldn't be writing this . i love you alot, but what you're doing now makes it seem like you only care about yourself .
please take this all in and change for the good . choose the right path, the one where you see you're family happy, not the one where it's only you. we're a family, and you know we'll always be there for you . no matter what . i'm serious though, i'm only saying this because i'm speaking for everyone. nobody likes the way you speak or treat them.
i know for sure that there's a great person in there, one who cares about everyone . right now i see the one who treats everyone like dirt and who cares about no one but themself .
i hope you understand how i'm feeling about all this. and now you know how everyone else feels . i know that deep inside you want to be a great person, i know you do . just let it out, no need to be afraid . so please choose the one you think is best . if you think that choosing to stay the way you are .. well , there's nothing i can do . but live the rest of my life .. just thinking why you wouldn't want to care about your family .
you're sorry, i know you are . i accept it, but start showing everyone else . be a great person . i have faith that this will all succeed . i truly do miss when we would just be soo happy, what happened ? please promise me that you'll change .
not at all , how can someone do such things and not care that it's hurting the people who love them the most ? this is what i really want to know . i really need the time away from all of this . it's killing me soo much, and people see it. then you go around acting like it you don't care . the way you talk to people, you act like the you're the best. hurts to know eh? but it's the truth. like when we all found out the truth .. man, it killed us . i felt like i wasn't going to be able to make it through that day . i don't want to sound mean at all, it's not my intention, but it seems like you want everyone around you to feel bad about what they do. you're the one who always says what seems to be the "right" choice . but to other people's point of views, it's not right, at all . you need to learn how to treat the people who gave you life with respect . i just hope that if you read this, you'll hopefully learn a lesson. i know i don't say anything .. but it's only because if i do, you'll probably just say something to me, that'll probably make me get furious . we love you alot, but the choices you're making are really not making us proud, at all . we all know that you think you're doing nothing wrong .. but start thinking about you're family . we all hear and see how you treat people .. and it's not right . i'm not telling you to change how you are, i'm just trying to tell you to start treating people with respect . and don't try saying that you are .. because i wouldn't be writing this . i love you alot, but what you're doing now makes it seem like you only care about yourself .
please take this all in and change for the good . choose the right path, the one where you see you're family happy, not the one where it's only you. we're a family, and you know we'll always be there for you . no matter what . i'm serious though, i'm only saying this because i'm speaking for everyone. nobody likes the way you speak or treat them.
i know for sure that there's a great person in there, one who cares about everyone . right now i see the one who treats everyone like dirt and who cares about no one but themself .
i hope you understand how i'm feeling about all this. and now you know how everyone else feels . i know that deep inside you want to be a great person, i know you do . just let it out, no need to be afraid . so please choose the one you think is best . if you think that choosing to stay the way you are .. well , there's nothing i can do . but live the rest of my life .. just thinking why you wouldn't want to care about your family .
you're sorry, i know you are . i accept it, but start showing everyone else . be a great person . i have faith that this will all succeed . i truly do miss when we would just be soo happy, what happened ? please promise me that you'll change .
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
it's like my iPod's stuck on replay .
i ate a banana. and she ate a pear. she likes this and i like that. soo many differences, yet soo alike. shes like my little sister. but especially, she's my bestest friend. all that plus she's my cousin. she annoys me the most the time, but i need the company. whenever i need her, she's there. and i'm there for her whenever she needs me.
from imitations of people, to retarded dancing, to critisizing people and to just being two weird gals. love ya kiddo ! stay up all night laughing at the most retardedest things ever ! like when we were snooping around "people's" pictures and just laughing at just everyone of them. haha, you could be sucha beeootch.. but you are mine! muahaha. lol, you are one girl who doesn't like certain people, a lot of certain people. baha, but the way some look, well .. they seem like total b words.
i'm glad to call you my family. lol, i know i can always count on you. and you know that i'm just a call away to always been on your side, no matter what. even if it seems to be really stupid. LOOOOL! i looooove you Natalie Ramos .
later skater hater =]
from imitations of people, to retarded dancing, to critisizing people and to just being two weird gals. love ya kiddo ! stay up all night laughing at the most retardedest things ever ! like when we were snooping around "people's" pictures and just laughing at just everyone of them. haha, you could be sucha beeootch.. but you are mine! muahaha. lol, you are one girl who doesn't like certain people, a lot of certain people. baha, but the way some look, well .. they seem like total b words.
i'm glad to call you my family. lol, i know i can always count on you. and you know that i'm just a call away to always been on your side, no matter what. even if it seems to be really stupid. LOOOOL! i looooove you Natalie Ramos .
later skater hater =]
Monday, August 17, 2009
You Belong With Me, Just One Step At A Time .
My summer has been great. There were some days when I felt like breaking down and just burst into tears. But the most days I'd feel extremely happy to have the people in my life. They help me through everything. I love them with all my life! <3 haha. I love when you watch a movie that takes place in the summertime and you see two people fall in love with each other and it turns out to be the most cutest thing ever ! I'm that kinda girl. I know it seems corny and all, but it's hella cute. Haha, well .. I didn't get any of that lovey dovey stuff. But oh well, it's all good. I'm the type of person who usually doesn't seem to let go of my past. Recently, the guys from my past have been coming back to my mind. They all somewhat hurt me. but only two hurt me the most. So bad that i thought my would pop outta my chest and i would explode. I learned alot from the two heartbreaks. I learned that sometimes loving someone with all your heart, can just turn around and leave you behind .. Feeling perfectly fine. Now that i think of it really hard, I only had one major heartbreak. i'm starting my first year of highschool in september, really excited, to meet new peopleand hopefully forget all the bad times I had.
You were the best i ever had. i loved you with everything i had. I know i'm too young to even know how love feels like and to be in love.. But we connected soo much. We would laugh soo much when we were hanging out. I really miss those days. I just hate it when I lay down and close my eyes and still see you here with me.. it really kills me to know how fast you let go.
I know for sure that the next four years of my life I'll find someone who will be as great as you were, but this time actually stay forever. I miss you. I just don't know what to do now, should i let go? I guess I should. But you i know that you'll always have a place in my heart. It'll just be deep down. Covered by many layers of new loves and happiness.
Life lesson; when you love someone, make sure that you think positive and keep him close. Because once they leave, you'll be a total wreck and feel like you can never love again.
^ I only speak from expreience.
Later skater hater .
=]
You were the best i ever had. i loved you with everything i had. I know i'm too young to even know how love feels like and to be in love.. But we connected soo much. We would laugh soo much when we were hanging out. I really miss those days. I just hate it when I lay down and close my eyes and still see you here with me.. it really kills me to know how fast you let go.
I know for sure that the next four years of my life I'll find someone who will be as great as you were, but this time actually stay forever. I miss you. I just don't know what to do now, should i let go? I guess I should. But you i know that you'll always have a place in my heart. It'll just be deep down. Covered by many layers of new loves and happiness.
Life lesson; when you love someone, make sure that you think positive and keep him close. Because once they leave, you'll be a total wreck and feel like you can never love again.
^ I only speak from expreience.
Later skater hater .
=]
Saturday, June 27, 2009
It Takes Time To Love .
I realized that all i ever talk about is love .
I really don't know what's going on in my mind .
Haha, i really gotta focus on something besides that .
Hmm .. Summer !
What should i do during the summer ?..
Well , i have plans with my family & i hope with some of them losers (:
I also need to work on myself, only cause this year had a lot of it's ups and downs & i feel like i should be prepared with what's going to happen next year .
I'm really excited ! Due to the fact that it's a new beginning .
Gaahh ! I swear i was just complaining how much i miss everyone .. I still do, don't get me wrong, but ever since like in the beginning of june, i've been dying to have a fresh new start .
Some people may see me as a "shy" girl .. Oh man, when you see me with my friends .. I feel like i can never shut my mouth .
Talking about my summer plans are getting boring so i guess i should talk about some other things that happened .. Like when me and my mom went into Winners and saw my aunt .. And then i saw my cousin and we saw this dude & oh man, he was "kinda" good looking .
Haha, that was soo funny .
But there were funniER moments .
For sure there were .
This paragraph was full of the most randomest things ever .
It's just that i have nothing to talk about .
Life's good .
There i go again .
I can sit here and talk about the weirdest things ever .
Some people may call me "quiet" .. I'm not quiet .
I'm just really .. carefull with who i speak to .
"I'm like 8'4, blonde hair to the floor.."
I love Taylor Swift !
She's friggin' hilarious .
I gotta stop with this, i'm talking about Taylor Swift ..
When clearly, i started this by talking about "love" .
Oh well , this is the first saturday of my summer .
Hope it'll be a blast .
I really don't know what's going on in my mind .
Haha, i really gotta focus on something besides that .
Hmm .. Summer !
What should i do during the summer ?..
Well , i have plans with my family & i hope with some of them losers (:
I also need to work on myself, only cause this year had a lot of it's ups and downs & i feel like i should be prepared with what's going to happen next year .
I'm really excited ! Due to the fact that it's a new beginning .
Gaahh ! I swear i was just complaining how much i miss everyone .. I still do, don't get me wrong, but ever since like in the beginning of june, i've been dying to have a fresh new start .
Some people may see me as a "shy" girl .. Oh man, when you see me with my friends .. I feel like i can never shut my mouth .
Talking about my summer plans are getting boring so i guess i should talk about some other things that happened .. Like when me and my mom went into Winners and saw my aunt .. And then i saw my cousin and we saw this dude & oh man, he was "kinda" good looking .
Haha, that was soo funny .
But there were funniER moments .
For sure there were .
This paragraph was full of the most randomest things ever .
It's just that i have nothing to talk about .
Life's good .
There i go again .
I can sit here and talk about the weirdest things ever .
Some people may call me "quiet" .. I'm not quiet .
I'm just really .. carefull with who i speak to .
"I'm like 8'4, blonde hair to the floor.."
I love Taylor Swift !
She's friggin' hilarious .
I gotta stop with this, i'm talking about Taylor Swift ..
When clearly, i started this by talking about "love" .
Oh well , this is the first saturday of my summer .
Hope it'll be a blast .