Wednesday, September 2, 2009
you cannot forget the past .
the past is the past, yes i know . but what if the past was the best ? then what ? how could i forget something that practically changed my whole life. you gave me the happiness i have now .. but now it's all gone, and you're there & i'm here. timing sucks , which means we weren't meant to be. imysfm . and people know that, i'm not hoping to expose our relationship here, it isn't my intention . just explaining how i felt when we were together . it felt like when you were a little kid, when you'd get that one toy you've always wanted .. then you get it, and you play with it forever and you get in trouble. well, i felt like that . we would talk forever, tell each other EVERYTHING, we were bestfriends. the bestest friend i've ever had. i don't know now, should i keep those memories .. ? or go along and make new ones ? it's taking everything away from me, my strength for starting over . people tell me that you were just one person, but they just don't understand . if only they could feel how we felt when we were together, you can't deny how you felt . i know you were happy, i could tell . like usual, we faught . for stupid reasons . we obviously made up and forgot about it . but i wish we were still strong, instead we ended up drifted apart and now we act like we don't know each other and worst, that we never shared anything special . it was all very special to me. i'm going to write too much, but if i need to .. sorry, but i will .
i may seem happy, but deep down inside i'm torn . i'm not broadcasting this so people can feel sorry for me . i just really need to get it all down because i'm keeping too much things inside & i feel like i'm going to explode . i'm not asking you for anything . i'm not asking you to come back and make me feel better, i'm just asking you why this all happened ? why did we get close, and drift apart fast? i don't even remember how i said my final goodbyes . i just said a simple bye because i was still upset that you left . i'm sorry, i try to make it up to you . but you don't seem to accept . everyone knows how it feels to have a strong love & feel like it'll never die, then once it does .. it kills . you have to admit . you know how it feels . i've been told to forget about it and move on to someone else . thing is, you've taken all of me . i don't ever want to love again . when i would tell you i loved you, i meant it . very much, and you'd say it too .
i'm starting to run out of things to say, because this is all limited . i loved you then, i'll love you know and i'm gonna love you forever . thanks for everything .
ilysfma.
6188-9308 .
i may seem happy, but deep down inside i'm torn . i'm not broadcasting this so people can feel sorry for me . i just really need to get it all down because i'm keeping too much things inside & i feel like i'm going to explode . i'm not asking you for anything . i'm not asking you to come back and make me feel better, i'm just asking you why this all happened ? why did we get close, and drift apart fast? i don't even remember how i said my final goodbyes . i just said a simple bye because i was still upset that you left . i'm sorry, i try to make it up to you . but you don't seem to accept . everyone knows how it feels to have a strong love & feel like it'll never die, then once it does .. it kills . you have to admit . you know how it feels . i've been told to forget about it and move on to someone else . thing is, you've taken all of me . i don't ever want to love again . when i would tell you i loved you, i meant it . very much, and you'd say it too .
i'm starting to run out of things to say, because this is all limited . i loved you then, i'll love you know and i'm gonna love you forever . thanks for everything .
ilysfma.
6188-9308 .